Brightest Glare

It's thirty five minutes past twelve, as I lay hear listening to my Drizzy Drake playlist (I'm in that concert the 29th) I foucus on the lyrics as i normally do but the sound of rain falling, smacking into the concrete thus breaking it's fall seems to have drowned out everything. No matter how much I turn up the volume. The sound of the pounding rain seems to continue to drown out everything. If not the rain its the sound of wind whistling through trees that blows me away. Or if it's a sunny day the sunlight shining so bright in my eyes leaves me with the brightest glare, Glaring at the world.

Ps. I will finish later

_Markk

Teenage Love Affair

markkmywordd: There's pretty much no avoiding it

"Men will continue to be insensitive and play, women will be sensitive & played leaving them feeling stupid & betrayed."

A Very Good Friend: you should write a fckn book

Where going to be calling my friend "suzie"
So Today suzie had an away saying "all niggas are the same" because she was talking to an older guy, and she liked him but he didn't like her so it was whatever than he hit her up they started talking again, today she's talking to a girl that likes this kid and he told suzie that he doesn't like that girl but she sent suzie convos with the same shit that he was writting to her. Which led to her away. So as we talk I say "Of course, most niggas between 15-24 are looking for a girl to hit and that's it, he dont want a wifey its just lines" and she says I feel so stupid which then had me say "Men will continue to be insensitive and play, women will be sensitive & played leaving them feeling stupid & betrayed."
Which is what I believe I don't think men as a whole will ever change in terms of just trying to get some & hurting many women in the process as a young man I have a lot of friends whose main pirority is to have sex with every attractive female some times not even that attractive female. These men have no sympathy for the feelings of women they hurt. I did say most men because there's still a percentage of men that choose to respect women & not use them as just something to get in, I am not saying that as teens we should be in commited relationships but be in honest relationships if you have to tell a girl numerous amount of convincing lies just to sleep with her don't. I know females who've shed many tears because they though her teen boyfriend was in love with her and wanted to be with her forever & it turns out forever was over after sex, If all you want is a girl to give it up, easy girls still do exist, no need for the heartbreak. If all your doing is breaking hearts & not giving a shit about it. In the long run your going to end up short like a midget on his knees.
-Markk

Thank You

I've been blogging for a while now and i've kind of sort watched it grow. Frow what i see it's growing the right way i read other peoples blog and it just inspires me to try to take the time think about what i post. so it can help people the way other peoples post help me. Blogger was going down the myspace path but that quickly change now its just "real people, posting the realest shit" to all those people that think about what their posting and try their best to freely and truefully express yourself. i got one thing to say "THANK YOU"

I'm GONE

Markk

Procrastination Vs. Negligence

Procrastination can be the down fall of us all, there is not a person in this big green earth that hasn't procrastinated, its a daily occurrence in many peoples lives it happens as often as taking a shower bushing your teeth combing your hair & if you don't procrastinate daily then you a dirty nigga, the thing that really matters is what you choose to procrastinate on. i am the first person to admit what i fuck up on & I've decided that it'd be a good idea to procrastinate on wait i done fucked up again i can say that i procrastinated on school because to procrastinate is to put something off til later and I've decided that i just wont do my work there fore i dub myself, not a procrastinator but a neglector. I've been neglecting school for such a long time one year three quarters to be exact i've said so many times that I'm going to change and do better but i don't recently I've been informed that i have been nominated to be a peer counselor. its a great opportunity but I'm battling the war of Markus & I & one thing i really don't like are hypocrites and i feel like if i don't get my shit straight that i am going to be sitting there giving kids advice that i myself do not abide by i want to change can i change when will i change ? honestly i hope now i need to sign a treaty with myself and stop letting me interfere with me. I'm starting to realize who i want to be in life i don't know much for sure but the thing i am most certain of is i want to change lives for the better & the first life i need to change is my own. i always thought i needed somebody to help me make this change but i was so wrong i will do this on my own. i started this post on procrastination but quickly realized that is not by problem it is neglect. i think I've finally embraced the fact that i need change and with that embracement brings closure to the very first battle neglect vs. procrastination with the winner being neglect but

I'm finna drop a mother fuckkin atomic bomb on neglects territory from a new opponent SELF-motivation

I'm GONE,

Markk

You Gay Fish

This shit is so funny and has an ill message about ego trippin. Do you like fishsticks? if yes, your a gay fish hahaa


Kanye's Response

“SOUTH PARK MURDERED ME LAST NIGHT AND IT’S PRETTY FUNNY. IT HURTS MY FEELINGS BUT WHAT CAN YOU EXPECT FROM SOUTH PARK! I ACTUALLY HAVE BEEN WORKING ON MY EGO THOUGH. HAVING THE CRAZY EGO IS PLAYED OUT AT THIS POINT IN MY LIFE AND CAREER. I USE TO USE IT TO BUILD UP MY ESTEEM WHEN NOBODY BELIEVED IN ME. NOW THAT PEOPLE DO BELIEVE AND SUPPORT MY MUSIC AND PRODUCTS THE BEST RESPONSE IS THANK YOU INSTEAD OF “I TOLD YOU SO!!!” IT’S COOL TO TALK SHIT WHEN YOU’RE RAPPING BUT NOT IN REAL LIFE. WHEN YOU MEET LITTLE WAYNE IN PERSON HE’S THE NICEST GUY FOR EXAMPLE. I JUST WANNA BE A DOPER PERSON WHICH STARTS WITH ME NOT ALWAYS TELLING PEOPLE HOW DOPE I THINK I AM. I NEED TO JUST GET PAST MYSELF. DROP THE BRAVADO AND JUST MAKE DOPE PRODUCT. EVERYTHING IS NOT THAT SERIOUS. AS LONG AS PEOPLE THINK I ACT LIKE A BITCH THIS TYPE OF SHIT WILL HAPPEN TO ME. I GOT A LONG ROAD AHEAD OF ME TO MAKE PEOPLE BELIEVE I’M NOT ACTUALLY A HUGE DOUCHE BUT I’M UP FOR THE CHALLENGE. I’M SURE THE WRITERS AT SOUTH PARK ARE REALLY NICE PEOPLE IN REAL LIFE. THANKS FOR TAKING THE TIME TO DRAW MY CREW. THAT WAS PRETTY FUNNY ALSO!! I’M SURE THERE’S GRAMMATICAL ERRORS IN THIS… THAT’S HOW YOU KNOW IT’S ME!”- From Kanye’s Blog

Just Thoughts

Your mind without thoughts calmWith thoughts that act as wind and scater everything.


For this post I'm basically coming off the top of the dome, I clicked new post and wrote"Just Thoughts" in the title because honestly I'm probably going to say a whole bunch of shit at random probably going to start doing this weekly because sometimes i just need to speak my mind here i go.

My mom went to talk to my sister about going to the met instead of Hope and my sister starts giving all her ifs, ands, & buts, & my mom goes you guys are all the same always saying what if & but that might, So with out even think i go "If you don't go through your buts, you'll end up in some shit" almost instantly mom my shoots me the "did-he-really-just-say-that-look" thankfully she starts laughing. I've realized lately my mouth will be my downfall its becoming fairly routine for me too say shit with out even thinking about it, it's good to be opened minded, bold souled, outspoken, & stand up for yourself and others, but it's not always appropriate. The Truth is that the truth is so painful, So there for you can only be so honest until your throwing jabs, uppercuts, & hooks with your words. To me it all goes back to "too much of anything is not good" which is why i despise the term "there can never be too much of anything" Conclusion Real Honesty can be one of the most painful qualities, watch what you say when you say.

With talking to Spence & Gibran it sent me back to thoughts of judgement I recently started hangin' with these kids. We got into the topic of the content of blogs and all agreed that blogger should not become the next myspace blogging continues to grow and grow every day and is continuing to be misused people that come on and just give us a timeline including every event that took place through out their day, it get annoying i know I've posted about my days before but i post when some thing very interesting funny or fucked up happened like today was a funny ass day but i rather write about something with more meaning , Gibran said that blogging is something special to him like he thoroughly thinks out his blogs and all ways ends up with a deep meaningful post, he posted some thing that was so over my head so i had to ask him "yo what the fuck you talking bout in that post" he explained it i get it now . I just want to see more meaningful post that shows us a side of you we've never seen & shows that you have a brain.

Last thing that's on my mind and consuming most of it right about now, so recently I've begun to like a girl who i always saw as a friend we've been good friends for a while now never thought i would develop feelings for her like there's something about her that's just starting to grow on me it could be her laugh, smile, sense of humor, inner beauty, or outer beauty I'm starting to think its just every thing about you. this most people probably know who I'm talking about. there are so many qualities about her that i like, i feel that we have a lot in common I'm never bored when I'm around her, her presences alone enlightens my mood. The most unique girl I've ever met i know its pretty often you hear guys say "there's no other girl like you" I've said it before but haven't meant it til now. we've already established a love as friends which is why it makes me nervous to tell how I've been feeling lately & i probably wont end up saying anything because i value our friendship more then anything i feel like your sending me mixed signals but i don't want to mix them the wrong way and ruin our friendship

That's what was on my mind tonight tomorrow I'm get deep about how there is still so much sexism & racism in this world until then....

Quotes of the day i gotta few

Knowledge is pain that is why it hurts to know that you pretend to hide what your feeling inside -Drake aka best rapper turned singer of all time

if you don't go through your buts, you'll end up in some shit
-Markk

I call this shit the calm but I'm the furthest thing from call
-Drake aka best rapper turned singer of all time

to make every body happy, i think i will need a clone
-Drake aka best rapper turned singer of all time

Ps. I listen to drake hard addict to his lyrics right about now

I'm GONE

-Markk

Kp & Bodegaa

Warwick

Alright so sunday seemed like an ordinary day i was playing 2k9, my moms woke she was like lets go shopping i was alright then in the van i turn on the ac and that upsets my mother then i say can i open the window that also upsets her because apparently "i always find some thing to bitch about" So from my my moms yelling at me its a little tense we get to the store she says shell be quick so when she leaves i turn the knob on the ac so when she starts the van again I'm nice and cool and she wont notice she comes back quick starts the van as were backing out of the parking space there was a loud racking noise and I'm like awhh shit man, my mom gets out looks at the front says something broke so i got out and there was 5 metal balls and i was like wtf is this so we just sat in the van my mom made a few calls and then we just waited when me and my mom are alone 3 things happen we laugh & have fun, don't talk to much, or argue today there was more don't talking and arguing. so after about 3 hours a tow truck comes and i got to sit next to this creepy ass tow truck driver and as i sat there i wonder how did he manage to fuck up and become a tow truck driver, we all know he doesn't wake up and the morning excited about his job. He was a weird guy and started telling random stories that me nor my mom cared about.

I'm GONE

Markk

Temporary

So Friday i was with Spencer Damien & Joel. Damiens rather upset because he's going to get home late and be in trouble with his parents and spence goes " everything in life is temporary" its something thats obvious but not thought of often

but before i really write whats on my mind got something else to say. Spence is probably the most misunderstood nigga at classical, he's hated by people because he comes off as a loud, obnoxious & rude kid that likes to "roast people" that might be true but that's not all he is. Give him a fair trail don't be so quick to judge. Innocent til proven guilty is what they say right ? So why you so convinced that he's guilty. Bottom line get to know people before you judge them

Back to temporary, so yeah when he said that it went over my head but latter i started thinking about how true that is mostly because life it self is temporary meaning every one lives and everyone dies. There is nothing that last forever so really people need to stop dwelling on small things every thing has a beginning and an end so chose wisely what you chose to keep going. I was planning on making this a long, deep, thoughtful post but basically I just want people to decide whats worth prolonging the inevitable end. Also stop getting so upset because whatevers upsetting you will be over soon enough.

I'm GONE

Markk