Snow, Rain, Ice, Walk?

Alright hello world, Im here to talk about a buncha shit today, so be prepared to read all this, well first of I didnt go to sleep at all i was up doing laundry & playing call of duty, then my mom yelled at me for not going to sleep, then i just went and ate cereal & a bagel then hadda talk to karina & reschedule our plans & then proceded to have one of the funnist convo's that ended with "KARINA & I ARE AMAZINGER THE EVERYONE" shes mad funny, anyways after that i finally fell asleep for only 2 hours woke up and played more call of duty imma feen, anyways while im here my day is slowly disappearing & at like 5 i decide to be a dumb ass and go for walk so i start my walk through this terrible weather and im walking & just thinking about everything & what imma do with my life of course i didnt come to a conclusion but i have alot of time of that, yeah then my mom calls me and ask where im at i had no idea so then after walking through some ill puddles and piles of snow i ended up on broad street and she said imma pick you up & where gunna go to the mall so i say sure, so where at the mall and we getta coule of thing the eat some subways & was gone

Alright thats what my day consist of but im in a pretty serious mood so imma go hard real quick about a couple things in my life heres a list of the top 5 things in life that get to me,

1)My father well the absence of him

2)My father well the absence of him

3)My father well the absence of him

4)My father well the absence of him

5)My father well the absence of him

I tend too try not to think of him that much but its so easy to blame him for everything that is wrong with me. First lemme fill you in on the situation, my father lives in new york i see him maybe twice a year he makes zero effort to contact me he remarried when i actually do get to see this guy we have no conversion i feel like he could careless that i existed he cant even remeber my birthday he thinks its like august 26th when its august 19th how can you not remember the birth of your first child & only child, as much as try to forget who you are i cant every day something reminds me of why i hate you, you pretty much ruined my life because of you i hold so much in ive been living my life at 50% i have a terrible additude to many things i lack self motavation self confidence self displine self respect because of you, i ever disrespect my mom who does anything & everything to see me happy but you do nothing&nothing which resluts in alot of bulit up anger an hatred for you the day i realized that you dont give two shits about markus andrew acevedo which you probably didnt even know that was my whole name, i gave up on you that day & i also gave up on 50% of my life, so because of you i cant be me, while i hate you so much all i want is to love you honestly if i had one wish it'd be to have you fagget ass in my life

I HATE MY FATHER,I HATE MY FATHER,I HATE MY FATHER,I HATE MY FATHER,I HATE MY FATHER,I HATE MY FATHER,I HATE MY FATHER,I HATE MY FATHER,I HATE MY FATHER,I HATE MY FATHER,I HATE MY FATHER,I HATE MY FATHER,I HATE MY FATHER,I HATE MY FATHER,I HATE MY FATHER,I HATE MY FATHER,I HATE MY FATHER

But why do you hate me dad what the fuck did i do to be neglected and mistreated by you honestly you can drop dead & i'd probably shed a single tear drop but thats it, theres pretty much nothing you can to do to change our relationship so imma have to carry the burden of being your son for the rest of my life but because you are my father imma always want your love but will probably never accept it so FUCK YOU FATHER i wish you could read this...

Quote of the day: '

Will: Hey, you know what, you ain't got to do nothing, uncle Phil. You know, ain't like I'm still five years old, you know? Ain't like I'll be sitting every night asking my mom "when's daddy coming home", you know? Who needs him? Hey, he wasn't there to teach me how to shoot my first basket, but I learned it, didn't I? And I got pretty damn good at it too, didn't I, uncle Phil?

Philip: Yeah, you did.

Will: Got to do my first date without him, right? I learned how to ride, I learned how to shave, I learned how to fight without him. I had *fourteen* great birthdays without him; he never even sent me a damn card. [shouts]

Will: To hell with him! [pause]

Will: I didn't need him then I won't need him now.

Philip : Will...

Will: No, you know what, uncle Phil? I'll get through college without him, I'll get a great job without him, I'll marry me a beautiful honey and I'm having a whole bunch of kids. I'll be a better father than he ever was. And I sure as hell don't need him for that, 'cause there ain't a [shouts]

Will: damn thing he can ever teach me about how to love my kids. [long pause]

Will: How come he don't want me, man?

-Fresh Prince

& im GONE

signed-markk