Brightest Glare

It's thirty five minutes past twelve, as I lay hear listening to my Drizzy Drake playlist (I'm in that concert the 29th) I foucus on the lyrics as i normally do but the sound of rain falling, smacking into the concrete thus breaking it's fall seems to have drowned out everything. No matter how much I turn up the volume. The sound of the pounding rain seems to continue to drown out everything. If not the rain its the sound of wind whistling through trees that blows me away. Or if it's a sunny day the sunlight shining so bright in my eyes leaves me with the brightest glare, Glaring at the world.

Ps. I will finish later

_Markk

Teenage Love Affair

markkmywordd: There's pretty much no avoiding it

"Men will continue to be insensitive and play, women will be sensitive & played leaving them feeling stupid & betrayed."

A Very Good Friend: you should write a fckn book

Where going to be calling my friend "suzie"
So Today suzie had an away saying "all niggas are the same" because she was talking to an older guy, and she liked him but he didn't like her so it was whatever than he hit her up they started talking again, today she's talking to a girl that likes this kid and he told suzie that he doesn't like that girl but she sent suzie convos with the same shit that he was writting to her. Which led to her away. So as we talk I say "Of course, most niggas between 15-24 are looking for a girl to hit and that's it, he dont want a wifey its just lines" and she says I feel so stupid which then had me say "Men will continue to be insensitive and play, women will be sensitive & played leaving them feeling stupid & betrayed."
Which is what I believe I don't think men as a whole will ever change in terms of just trying to get some & hurting many women in the process as a young man I have a lot of friends whose main pirority is to have sex with every attractive female some times not even that attractive female. These men have no sympathy for the feelings of women they hurt. I did say most men because there's still a percentage of men that choose to respect women & not use them as just something to get in, I am not saying that as teens we should be in commited relationships but be in honest relationships if you have to tell a girl numerous amount of convincing lies just to sleep with her don't. I know females who've shed many tears because they though her teen boyfriend was in love with her and wanted to be with her forever & it turns out forever was over after sex, If all you want is a girl to give it up, easy girls still do exist, no need for the heartbreak. If all your doing is breaking hearts & not giving a shit about it. In the long run your going to end up short like a midget on his knees.
-Markk

Thank You

I've been blogging for a while now and i've kind of sort watched it grow. Frow what i see it's growing the right way i read other peoples blog and it just inspires me to try to take the time think about what i post. so it can help people the way other peoples post help me. Blogger was going down the myspace path but that quickly change now its just "real people, posting the realest shit" to all those people that think about what their posting and try their best to freely and truefully express yourself. i got one thing to say "THANK YOU"

I'm GONE

Markk

Procrastination Vs. Negligence

Procrastination can be the down fall of us all, there is not a person in this big green earth that hasn't procrastinated, its a daily occurrence in many peoples lives it happens as often as taking a shower bushing your teeth combing your hair & if you don't procrastinate daily then you a dirty nigga, the thing that really matters is what you choose to procrastinate on. i am the first person to admit what i fuck up on & I've decided that it'd be a good idea to procrastinate on wait i done fucked up again i can say that i procrastinated on school because to procrastinate is to put something off til later and I've decided that i just wont do my work there fore i dub myself, not a procrastinator but a neglector. I've been neglecting school for such a long time one year three quarters to be exact i've said so many times that I'm going to change and do better but i don't recently I've been informed that i have been nominated to be a peer counselor. its a great opportunity but I'm battling the war of Markus & I & one thing i really don't like are hypocrites and i feel like if i don't get my shit straight that i am going to be sitting there giving kids advice that i myself do not abide by i want to change can i change when will i change ? honestly i hope now i need to sign a treaty with myself and stop letting me interfere with me. I'm starting to realize who i want to be in life i don't know much for sure but the thing i am most certain of is i want to change lives for the better & the first life i need to change is my own. i always thought i needed somebody to help me make this change but i was so wrong i will do this on my own. i started this post on procrastination but quickly realized that is not by problem it is neglect. i think I've finally embraced the fact that i need change and with that embracement brings closure to the very first battle neglect vs. procrastination with the winner being neglect but

I'm finna drop a mother fuckkin atomic bomb on neglects territory from a new opponent SELF-motivation

I'm GONE,

Markk

You Gay Fish

This shit is so funny and has an ill message about ego trippin. Do you like fishsticks? if yes, your a gay fish hahaa


Kanye's Response

“SOUTH PARK MURDERED ME LAST NIGHT AND IT’S PRETTY FUNNY. IT HURTS MY FEELINGS BUT WHAT CAN YOU EXPECT FROM SOUTH PARK! I ACTUALLY HAVE BEEN WORKING ON MY EGO THOUGH. HAVING THE CRAZY EGO IS PLAYED OUT AT THIS POINT IN MY LIFE AND CAREER. I USE TO USE IT TO BUILD UP MY ESTEEM WHEN NOBODY BELIEVED IN ME. NOW THAT PEOPLE DO BELIEVE AND SUPPORT MY MUSIC AND PRODUCTS THE BEST RESPONSE IS THANK YOU INSTEAD OF “I TOLD YOU SO!!!” IT’S COOL TO TALK SHIT WHEN YOU’RE RAPPING BUT NOT IN REAL LIFE. WHEN YOU MEET LITTLE WAYNE IN PERSON HE’S THE NICEST GUY FOR EXAMPLE. I JUST WANNA BE A DOPER PERSON WHICH STARTS WITH ME NOT ALWAYS TELLING PEOPLE HOW DOPE I THINK I AM. I NEED TO JUST GET PAST MYSELF. DROP THE BRAVADO AND JUST MAKE DOPE PRODUCT. EVERYTHING IS NOT THAT SERIOUS. AS LONG AS PEOPLE THINK I ACT LIKE A BITCH THIS TYPE OF SHIT WILL HAPPEN TO ME. I GOT A LONG ROAD AHEAD OF ME TO MAKE PEOPLE BELIEVE I’M NOT ACTUALLY A HUGE DOUCHE BUT I’M UP FOR THE CHALLENGE. I’M SURE THE WRITERS AT SOUTH PARK ARE REALLY NICE PEOPLE IN REAL LIFE. THANKS FOR TAKING THE TIME TO DRAW MY CREW. THAT WAS PRETTY FUNNY ALSO!! I’M SURE THERE’S GRAMMATICAL ERRORS IN THIS… THAT’S HOW YOU KNOW IT’S ME!”- From Kanye’s Blog

Just Thoughts

Your mind without thoughts calmWith thoughts that act as wind and scater everything.


For this post I'm basically coming off the top of the dome, I clicked new post and wrote"Just Thoughts" in the title because honestly I'm probably going to say a whole bunch of shit at random probably going to start doing this weekly because sometimes i just need to speak my mind here i go.

My mom went to talk to my sister about going to the met instead of Hope and my sister starts giving all her ifs, ands, & buts, & my mom goes you guys are all the same always saying what if & but that might, So with out even think i go "If you don't go through your buts, you'll end up in some shit" almost instantly mom my shoots me the "did-he-really-just-say-that-look" thankfully she starts laughing. I've realized lately my mouth will be my downfall its becoming fairly routine for me too say shit with out even thinking about it, it's good to be opened minded, bold souled, outspoken, & stand up for yourself and others, but it's not always appropriate. The Truth is that the truth is so painful, So there for you can only be so honest until your throwing jabs, uppercuts, & hooks with your words. To me it all goes back to "too much of anything is not good" which is why i despise the term "there can never be too much of anything" Conclusion Real Honesty can be one of the most painful qualities, watch what you say when you say.

With talking to Spence & Gibran it sent me back to thoughts of judgement I recently started hangin' with these kids. We got into the topic of the content of blogs and all agreed that blogger should not become the next myspace blogging continues to grow and grow every day and is continuing to be misused people that come on and just give us a timeline including every event that took place through out their day, it get annoying i know I've posted about my days before but i post when some thing very interesting funny or fucked up happened like today was a funny ass day but i rather write about something with more meaning , Gibran said that blogging is something special to him like he thoroughly thinks out his blogs and all ways ends up with a deep meaningful post, he posted some thing that was so over my head so i had to ask him "yo what the fuck you talking bout in that post" he explained it i get it now . I just want to see more meaningful post that shows us a side of you we've never seen & shows that you have a brain.

Last thing that's on my mind and consuming most of it right about now, so recently I've begun to like a girl who i always saw as a friend we've been good friends for a while now never thought i would develop feelings for her like there's something about her that's just starting to grow on me it could be her laugh, smile, sense of humor, inner beauty, or outer beauty I'm starting to think its just every thing about you. this most people probably know who I'm talking about. there are so many qualities about her that i like, i feel that we have a lot in common I'm never bored when I'm around her, her presences alone enlightens my mood. The most unique girl I've ever met i know its pretty often you hear guys say "there's no other girl like you" I've said it before but haven't meant it til now. we've already established a love as friends which is why it makes me nervous to tell how I've been feeling lately & i probably wont end up saying anything because i value our friendship more then anything i feel like your sending me mixed signals but i don't want to mix them the wrong way and ruin our friendship

That's what was on my mind tonight tomorrow I'm get deep about how there is still so much sexism & racism in this world until then....

Quotes of the day i gotta few

Knowledge is pain that is why it hurts to know that you pretend to hide what your feeling inside -Drake aka best rapper turned singer of all time

if you don't go through your buts, you'll end up in some shit
-Markk

I call this shit the calm but I'm the furthest thing from call
-Drake aka best rapper turned singer of all time

to make every body happy, i think i will need a clone
-Drake aka best rapper turned singer of all time

Ps. I listen to drake hard addict to his lyrics right about now

I'm GONE

-Markk

Kp & Bodegaa

Warwick

Alright so sunday seemed like an ordinary day i was playing 2k9, my moms woke she was like lets go shopping i was alright then in the van i turn on the ac and that upsets my mother then i say can i open the window that also upsets her because apparently "i always find some thing to bitch about" So from my my moms yelling at me its a little tense we get to the store she says shell be quick so when she leaves i turn the knob on the ac so when she starts the van again I'm nice and cool and she wont notice she comes back quick starts the van as were backing out of the parking space there was a loud racking noise and I'm like awhh shit man, my mom gets out looks at the front says something broke so i got out and there was 5 metal balls and i was like wtf is this so we just sat in the van my mom made a few calls and then we just waited when me and my mom are alone 3 things happen we laugh & have fun, don't talk to much, or argue today there was more don't talking and arguing. so after about 3 hours a tow truck comes and i got to sit next to this creepy ass tow truck driver and as i sat there i wonder how did he manage to fuck up and become a tow truck driver, we all know he doesn't wake up and the morning excited about his job. He was a weird guy and started telling random stories that me nor my mom cared about.

I'm GONE

Markk

Temporary

So Friday i was with Spencer Damien & Joel. Damiens rather upset because he's going to get home late and be in trouble with his parents and spence goes " everything in life is temporary" its something thats obvious but not thought of often

but before i really write whats on my mind got something else to say. Spence is probably the most misunderstood nigga at classical, he's hated by people because he comes off as a loud, obnoxious & rude kid that likes to "roast people" that might be true but that's not all he is. Give him a fair trail don't be so quick to judge. Innocent til proven guilty is what they say right ? So why you so convinced that he's guilty. Bottom line get to know people before you judge them

Back to temporary, so yeah when he said that it went over my head but latter i started thinking about how true that is mostly because life it self is temporary meaning every one lives and everyone dies. There is nothing that last forever so really people need to stop dwelling on small things every thing has a beginning and an end so chose wisely what you chose to keep going. I was planning on making this a long, deep, thoughtful post but basically I just want people to decide whats worth prolonging the inevitable end. Also stop getting so upset because whatevers upsetting you will be over soon enough.

I'm GONE

Markk

Lady G & Fresh Prince

The conversation i would have with lady gaga if i was to meet her in person...

Mark: Yo Lady Gaga

Lady Gaga: Hello Loving Fan

Mark: Yeah Umm...

Lady G: What Is It

Mark: Fuck You and Your Poker Face

Lady Gaga : OMG

Mark: HAHAHA

Oh yeah this shit gets to me every time.

Batman

I believe that this is rather cool,

Regret

Regret by most peoples definition is admitting defeat, embarrassment, shame, and making mistakes. So most people say "I NEVER REGRET ANYTHING" but that is complete and total bullshit, most people will say that because they either feel like nothing they do is wrong and/or they know they did something wrong but are scared ashamed embarrassed to own up there flaws in life. People say i live by the "Everything happens for a reason" or the "We learn from our mistake" motto's. But those are not it excuses to disregard the feeling of regret or guilt.

The proper definition of regret is

re⋅gret 
–verb (used with object)
1.to feel sorrow or remorse for (an act, fault, disappointment, etc.): He no sooner spoke than he regretted it.
2.to think of with a sense of loss: to regret one's vanished youth.
–noun

3.a sense of loss, disappointment, dissatisfaction, etc.
4.a feeling of sorrow or remorse for a fault, act, loss, disappointment, etc.
5.regrets, a polite, usually formal refusal of an invitation: I sent her my regrets.
6.a note expressing regret at one's inability to accept an invitation: I have had four acceptances and one regret.

People see Regret as being weak, which it's not there is nothing weak about regret. It takes courage to admit regret for things. i believe that everybody regrets more things that they can remember there is not a person that regrets nothing in life or only regrets one thing. There is way too much time in life to live regret free. Every one makes mistakes therefore every one has regrets. Nobody is perfect therefore every has regrets. Because i do not CARE what you or you or you say every one wants to be perfect and the things that prevent you from being perfect are some of the biggest regrets in life.

EVERYONE IS BORN WITH REGRETS...

I'm going to try to list things that i regret in no order of how much i regret them

1. I regret not learning Spanish and having one real conversation with my grandfather before he past and to this day i have not had a real conversation with my grandmother or great grand mother and as much as i hate this the fact is I am running out of time more and more everyday.

2. I regret choosing to keep to myself for all of freshmen year and most of sophomore year and not opening up and show people the real me.

3. I regret not giving school all my effort, No matter how much i complain about how much i hate classical its where I'm going to be at and help me lead a successful

4.I regret not having a good relationship with my father

5. I regret waiting so long to start trying to lose weight, BTW lost 20 pounds in 2 months =]

6. I regret losing contact with certain friends.

7. I regret giving people reasons to dislike/hate me.

8. I regret FAILING Bio last year and going to summer school.

9. I regret giving up on a lot of things and not taking advantage of great opportunities

10. I regret not realizing that i NEED to change who I am sooner. Well not who i am but change my point of view on things and my attitude as well.

I Can probably go on forever but I'd probably regret that too. Just kidding but I'm sure you get my point by now. Who knows when ill post again but until then.

Quote of the day:

Make the most of your regrets. . . . To regret deeply is to live afresh.

-Henry David Thoreau

& I am GONE

-MARKK

unexpected absence

Okay ive been gone for a rather long time & the answer to the riddle that was on my page was for the man to say "im going to jail for 6 years" im in school right now in ms.vicans room so ill bbl for a full post

Funny

Today march 11, was a fun ass day ill let you know all about it tomarrow im tired goodnight im leave this for you tho

A man was to be sentenced, and the judge told him, "You may make a statement. If it is true, I'll sentence you to four years in prison. If it is false, I'll sentence you to six years in prison." After the man made his statement, the judge decided to let him go free. What did the man say?

leave your answer in a comment

Lilly & Karina =]

So yeah i been M.I.A for about a week and a half well i been busy & i usually blog at night but ive been going to the gym by the time i come home too tired for blogging things that have happend since ive last posted i found out i lost 11 pounds thats a start huh? realized that Claribel Cruz is one of my best friends ever, decided i hate winter and as soon as i can im off too florida or some where, where they laugh when they hear the word snow, I've developed a hate for Giants gm jerry reese stop signing god dam defensive lineman sign some damn wide recievers, I am letting go of people really just one person in particular she was a waste of time well thats part of my past and part i want to forget, I've become less homophoic over the past couple of days due to a friend admitting that she was bi it was easier because its a girl not a guy but still its a step, dont ask who it is because that name will not be released, other things happend but yeah thats enough.


Lilly & Karina =]
I love them

Lilly, Me & lilly fight more than any other two friends you will probably ever meet shes stabbed me, bit me, scratched kicked punch etc. where always yelling at each other but we wouldnt be the same if we didnt fight as much as we did, shes my favorite freshmen & i love her
Ps. They got matching moles lmao [insider with lilly]

Karina i've blogged about her before she funny, not smart, pretty, weird, loud, and, fun. She tries to fight with me but i always win today her & lilly made my day i was in a bad mood but after chillin' with them after school my day was all better karina attacked me cause i took her bookbag or how she says it boobag lmao guat accent i love her though

Im GONE

-Markk

Just haven't

Well i just haven't been posting that much idk why but tomarrows a half day some thing intresting is bound to happen.

Until then im GONE.

Really?

Alright so I'm here to talk about things that kids and/or teachers do in school that bothers me. There numbered but in no order of annoince there annoy me equally

1. When the teacher says shut up & people say I'm not the only one talking.
Well you shouldn't be talking anyways it doesn't matter if the other is talking too, your probably the loudest so just shut up when your told to shut up
2. When someones phone vibrates loudly & you notice & they noticed you notice, & they give you a dirty look like your going to say something to the teacher, I don't care that your dumb ass forgot to put your phone on silent.
3.when teachers give long ass assignments over vacation, Mr.Mao outline a full chapter. Asshole its vacation for a reason
4. This applys for classical students, theres a blind kid in the school & anytime i see this kid i hold the door for him its ridiculous how many times people will rush in front of him to get by at least three people will jump in front of him before he passes i don't do for the recognition because he blind, he doesn't know I'm holding the door i do it cause its common courtesy, can other people show some
5. When kids want to argue with the teachers, you will not win obviously. not saying don't stick up for your self but there is a line that shouldn't be crossed once you give a teacher slight attitude then you lost, so if you disagree just tell them after class don't disrupt the whole class to fight a losing match.
6. frequently asked question at every school "are we ever going to actually use this or why are we learning this" alright were obviously going to learn stuff we will never use like biology i will never need to know that the difference between eukaryote cells and prokaryote cells is that eukaryote cells have nucleus have prokaryotes don't but I learn'd it to know it. So what im saying is we don't learn to use, we learn to gain the knowledge as they say knowledge is power so if you know everything even the unnecessary then the more powerful you'll be. by the way when you learned to play video games did you think when I'm i going to NEED this, when you learned to set up your myspace did you ask when your going to NEED this, etc. No you don't so don't ask when your learning the difference between eukaryote and prokaryote.

*Def going to be making a part two of this blog.

im GONE

-Markk

Myspace

I've decided that i am done with myspace, wasted alot of time on that website. i wont be deleting my page just rarely going to be checking it, so aim is the best way to contact me

Goodbye

-M. Andrew

You got a dream...You gotta protect it !

So today I spent the majority of the day playing 2k9 with ryan, supposed to go to the mall but then that didn't seem like a good idea so we just chill'd kept playing then at 930 we decided shit we should do something but couldn't find a damn thing to do then it was just too late so we eat pizza & watch movies first we saw the end of prom night, then 5 minutes of first Sunday, 2 minutes of superbad, then put on pursuit of happiness & then love & basketball

Pursuit of happiness gets to me for multiple reasons, first his determination through out the whole movie is unbelievable,second the emotion displayed incredible, third keeps he keeps his priority in check , forth his intelligence is remarkable, lastly & what gets too me the most is his dedication to his son but we won't get into this again(read previous post)

Love&Basketball One thing learn'd:True love should never die & it never will

Quote of the day:You got a dream... You gotta protect it. People can't do something' themselves, they wanna tell you you can't do it. If you want something', go get it. Period.-Chris Gardner(Will Smith)

Stayy up&im GONE

-Markk

Tagg'd By....

L.Harris of Team Eight, & christine. Their Cool !



1. Alright your not going to find out much here -__- Want to know something aim works a lot better Aim sn: markk my wordd

2. Ryan murray's house, has become my home away from home & im pretty much part of the fam

3.I've decided that I am going to attempt to take W.Spahks practice of radical truth, will probably make life easier then again there are still things better left unsaid -__0

4.I've also decided that classical highschool is no longer going to be my school, It just isn't the school for me, so after sophomore year im off on a new adventure. Will miss a select few

5.Caitlin T. Will always be my bff no matter what school she or i attends, ily bff

6. It seems as if I can make anyone laugh with one word "diet" Overweight kids are never taken serious when it comes to losing weight

7. My mother is amazing & is upset the I only mention her in my blog when she's mad or yelling at me, but ily momma krabs. Happy? Probably not. I bet that bother'd you mom ah haa

8. I am still not tired of "so far gone' listen to it no less then 5 times a day listening to it as I type, Drake equals lyrical/musical genius

9. Drinking only water every day makes a sip of any other drink taste like a cup of gold

10.Blogging is very time consuming -___- im only on 10 & I've been doing this for an hour

11. This vacation has gone by too fast im dreading Monday as if it is the first day of a 25 to life sentence at San Quinn prison, I really despise classical

12. I still have no clue where ill end up in life but I hope its in law/svu I want to be the Puerto Rican elliot stabler, or a chef of some sort, or I think I could be a very talented actor13. Degrassi is a ill ass show, just realized this & aubrey graham aka Drake, stars in this show as a basketball coach in a wheelchair

14. Okay I had too take like a 30 minute break to find a way to charge my phone in the end ps3 is the shit charging via usb from ps3,

15. I should def be knock'd out right now the clock just struck 5:00 am, im going to watch another hour of degrassi shits getting intense this J.T is steal drugs and selling them to get money for his baby, then probably not go to sleep & be exhausted all damn day, tuff

16. Took me an hour & 4 minutes too complete this, I just woke up Ryan oops ahh well last fact Will Smith is kind of like my role model/influence I've liked every move/show by him except wild wild west if I could flip a coin & by the time it lands every copy dissapears & no one remember'd its existence that'd be great
*JT almost killed himself, couldn't handle the pressure of being a drug deal, OD on oxycondone, remember what biggie said "never get high on your own supply"

& I guess ill tag Rissa